Reasons to lose weight

I have read everyone elses blogs about their individual reasons for wanting to be apart of this experience, and I feel like you have already answered the question for me! A lot of what you ladies have said, is exactly how I feel. One of my main reasons, is that I feel like over the last few years, I have not been able to be in control of my own body. I have had so many health issues, no energy, a lot of pain, and I dont like what I see in the mirror. I want my body to be in synch with my age. I am 30 years old and yet every day I feel like my body is betraying me. I dont seem to have the basic energy to do normal things. I feel guilty that I am not a more active part of my kids daily activities. I used to plan such fun activities for them, from scavenger hunts, to picnics at the park. I dont have the energy anymore! I want to not feel self conscious of my body, I dont want to make excuses for myself this year for why I dont want to go to the pool with my family-and when I do, I dont want to have to wear the swim shorts to cover myself up. I want to plat tag when it warms up without falling down from exhaustion after two minutes and giving up my turn. I want to be able to get fit enough to be able to run again, I used to look forward to that part of my day. It made my stress less, I worked out problems I dare say I could never have solved any other way- while my feet pounded the cement. My main goal is to just become healthier. This started out for me as just a contest, a number that I wanted to accomplish on the scale. But it has become so much more for me. I know a lot of you wonder why I am in this contest. You look at me and you think to yourselves, she is already thin, what is she doing? I can see it on your faces and thats ok! My purpose isn't to be a size one, my purpose it to become healthier then I have been the last 4 years and take back control of MY life, of MY destiny to be the best mom and wife and person I can be. There were two very serious health scares during this period where I was so sick I could have easily left this earth. Lying in an ICU bed with blood transfusions dripping into your body because you have lost so much of your own blood that its your only choice, that makes you think a lot about your life, about your future. This is my chance to make sure that I allow every opportunity for my body to be as strong as it can be. So thats it, thats my reason. I appreciate all of your support in helping me accomplish this chapter in my life!