hello all!

Hello ladies,
This week has just flown by! I cant believe that it's already Friday. Today my oldest daughter Telle, said that she was excited to only have 9 days of school left after today. HOLY CRAP!!! Is it seriously that close to chaos now?! I love, and also hate summer. I love that I get to spend more time with my kids, and I hate that I get to spend so much time with my kids. Ok, LOl, that came out wrong I think! I dont hate spending time with them, it's just that I am such a protective mama and I need to learn how to let go a little and let my kids spread their wings. If I could learn how to do that, there would not be so much whining and asking constantly to do this and that with him or her and ladi dadi doo. Enough of that rant!

So I was eating funky flavored taffy last night courtesty of mr. T. and I was scamming the headlines when I came across a picture that made my heart sink. The earthquake that hit China on Monday has been well journalized. This picture was of a mother cradling her son after he was pulled dead from the rubble of his elementary school. The launguage of a mothers love is universal, it transcends all language barriers and continents, the anguish and sorrow in this mothers face documented in the form of a simple picture left me speachless. Tim and I had been joking and laughing only moments before and now I was transfixed looking at picture after picture of this country literally devistated by this. Parents cleaning their childrens hands sacredly before they were buried in mass graves to avoid decomp problems, a wife lying down beside her dead husband in the street refusing to let him be moved, can you imagine yourself faced with such horror-could you let your child go? I think my child would have to be torn from my arms...There was a story about a teenage girl who was trapped so horribly that both her legs had to be amputated before she could be moved and she was one of the lucky ones.. They go on and on and make you heartsick. My kids saw me a horrible mess after Katrina, I bawled for days feeling so helpless and had I had the opportunity I would have given the clothes off my back! I don't know about anyone else, but it makes me feel helpless and sad, and desperate, and more grateful then I can ever express. It also makes me think that no matter what, each day is a gift with those we care about and love, we could have an earthquake here tomorrow, where would our babies and husbands be? What would we give to hold them one more time, to tell them that we love them, to take back something we said or did? I pray for all those who are affected by tradgedy in their live, whether its out there for the world to view or personal. It makes griping about gas prices and having kids home for summer break just downright assanine. Well, enough depressing y'all for one day!

So good luck to Melissa tomorrow running the 5K at Thanksgiving Point. Kick butt girl, and thanks for hanging out with me yesterday, it was a lot of fun! I have the NICU reunion tomorrow which should be fun. It's always so awesome to see all the babies now growing so big and doing so awesome!

I hope everyone else is doing ok. Keep your chins up and keep on keepin' on LOL!

really on the nose

My friend Della has a really cool blog. She is also really great at posting each and every day! Yes, I know, I suck. I have already admitted my suckiness and am looking for a "suckiness help group" in my area. Now, I mention Della because she posted yesterday, BTW HAPPY BELATED MOTHERS DAY TO ALL YOU LADIES!!! And in her wishes of all thats good, she posted a 2 minute long anthem to mothers. Ya'll have to check it out! I watched it at like 1 in the morning-thank you insomnia-and I had to cover my mouth so as not to wake my house! It's this woman who made into a song everything we mothers say in a 24 hour period to our kids. I was rolling on the floor, so get your laugh in for the day and check her out!
Ok, weight wise I gained about half a pound this month. I am in no way sad about this now weighing 112 because Tim and I joined a gym about 6 weeks ago and I have been doing alot of muscle building and toning, and I expect to be gaining muscle now,as I think I lost all the fat that was available to lose. I absolutely love the weight machines, the treadmill and the eliptical. It is great to have a kid old enough to babysit for short periods of time. Ty is almost 11 and a pretty responsible kid, he does a great job and besides the ther kids are in bed by the time we go.
So that is pretty much all that is going on. I am trying to prepare for summer break coming up, but can you ever prepare for that?!

Ok, so it has been not only obvious to myself, but other readers have basically told me that well, I SUCK!! I have been absolutely horrible at posting and I pray that you may all forgive me as I am on bended knee begging you!!!!

This past week was spring break for the kids. I watched the downstairs little boy for 4 days which kinda screwed everything up for going places. We wouldn't all fit into the car! But I did make a hundred bucks which is the first amount of money to go into the pot for my BJ (that stands for boob-job sick minded ladies!) and that is very exciting. Only 3650 more to go LOL!

I was super excited that the kids went back to school today needless to say. But I was very naughty and I ate a lemon hostess pie. BAD BAD BAD!! I ate it and then looked at the back. Ladies, not a good idea. There are 10 points in one of those!!!!! I almost threw up I was so disgusted with myself. I will do better tomorrow. I also had to learn a very hard lesson last week when I ate like crap all day. I was so freakin' sick, and it lasted for 4 days. Bad stuff y'all, I will never do that again.

I joined a gym, finally! I laugh at myself for this one for the fact that I lost all my weight before I even joined one! Kinda silly huh? Now that I achieved weight loss my goals have changed to continuing to become more aerobically (that is so not a word, but oh well!) healthy, and to tone more. Don't be surprised if you see me gain some weight as I add more muscle to me.

I am really excited about our girls over nighter for the final weigh-in! I really hope we can all make it-hint, hint! Carrie is coming all the way from Georgia, so it would be really great if everyone else could make the effort to be there. We will have such a blast, and after this journey you should all be so proud of yourselves and this should be a wonderful reward. Your hubbies can take care of the kids for one night and although its a sacrafice for them to do it, we all deserve it! So enough of my soapbox...

I hope everyone is doing great. It was a really tough month for everyone but we can get back on track ladies. Thanks to you all for such awesome support. And oh yeah, your forgiveness LOL!

It's been a while

so I have sucked at posting. I should be punished! I do however have great news as far as weighing goes. Drumroll please.... I weighed in today at 111.5!!! I will have to have Christi help me post the pic of my weight and the pic I took last week in my bikini. Yes I got into a bikini!! Well last night I burned 6 of my fingertips and 4 now have honker blisters on them so typing even this much is like torture. Good luck to all..

weigh in day

I'm kinda in a hurry this morning so I will just post my weight and do an update later. I lost 1 pound, so I am at 115 and have 5 pounds left to go! More later...

weigh in day

I am so sorry I have been such a slacker this past week! I only lost 6 ounces, but I am now exactly 6 pounds away from my goal!! That is very exciting for me.
Let me just say how much fun I had this weekend. I really feel like I got to know you guys so much better, and we are such great chefs ladies! I really wish that each and every one of you in the BL could make it to these get-togethers every month. I am sorry for those of you who just couldn't make it for scheduling reasons, and I am sad for those of you who don't live in state, I don't mean to rub that in like you are thinking Carrie! I feel like this is an experience where I have made life long friends. I want everyone to know how much I appreciate your support. I feel incredibly blessed to be a part of this group. Ok, I will stop being sappy :)!
I have more energy, I am eating healthier, and I feel so sexy!!! I still have some toning that needs to happen in my thighs, but I really think that running will dissolve that. My relief-society arms are gone, (as are my boobs-but I am looking into some help with that problem with a very nice augmentation hopefully this year!), but my stomach is truly flat ladies! I have hip bones again that stick out further than my belly LOL, and my butt is no longer bumpier than the street in front of my house! Just the legs and a few pounds left... Can you guys tell a difference?

weigh-in day

Toda was weigh in day and I am down 2 pounds this week! Weight is now 116.5, I cant believe we are halfway through with this contest! This week has flown by and it is almost the weekend again. Also ladies, season 2 of "in the motherhood" premiered a few weeks ago, and there is another episode came out today, episode 3. It is also LOL funny, so check it out. For those of you who didn't see my initial post about it the website is http://www.inthemotherhood.msn.com so enjoy!